Self healing journey

 When you come from a privileged background, nothing ever seems unachievable. As a child, you get whatever you want. The world seems limitless and expectations from life expand which could and did lead to a lot of disappointment.   With that privilege comes certain expectations from others on how you should live your life so that you can maintain this privilege. These expectations, for a person as imprint-able as I was back then, stopped me from following through with my personal dreams and aspirations back in school and college. I wanted to pursue humanities and psychology in school, in todays time I am pursuing the same in the from of Tarot. At a point of time I wanted to pursue a career in dancing and a couple of years ago I did teach a few workshops on Flow Movement (the art of finding your own inner movement to music). So in a sense of speaking, this privilege has most definitely slowed down my progress in certain areas of my life. At the same time it was this very p...

 Over the last couple of days since dwelling deep into my insecurities and also looking at my strengths. I've realized that I've got to dig deep into my creativity and work on these insecurities. Ever since this realization I've started opening up my insecurities with people that I feel would understand where I am coming from.  (AND YOU ALL AS WELL NOW, The fear of being judged needs to also be faced!!) By doing this and seeing reactions from others gives me constant reaffirmation through reflection, that I am on a path which will eventually benefit me. If I can stay brave and keep my inner courage alive. To deal with things you've kept hidden within you for a long time, you must stay determined, focused, courageous, not to forget your own self and your idea of who you want to be through this process!! "I VOW TO LET MY INTERNAL FLAME GUIDE ME THROUGH THIS PROCESS!!" When it comes to the matter of my strengths, being highly empathetic, I can put myself in anyon...

 What do you do the moment you feel insecure after taking a step in a certain direction and being left in uncertainty of the conclusion? I've got to appreciate the fact that I at least took a step towards what I wanted. Putting myself out there to be seen. Now how others may perceive me is not in my control. However things unfold, they unfold.  Your main focus at the moment is to take actions and learn to take them in order to earn what you deserve in life. What do you do when you feel guilty about being a little selfish and self-centered? This feeling engulfed me into deep introspection, "Why do I feel guilty about looking after myself instead of others?" Well it's quite simple isn't it? Because you're not used to looking after yourself before others. CALL IT GUILT OR CALL IT LIBERATION!!

 Remaining focused on my true self as well as the vision of myself that I want to achieve, while remaining patient and holding onto as much balance as possible. It is a PROCESS/PROJECT. It is about taking my ideology with objectivity and working towards it slowly but steadily. Not losing sight of neither my true self, nor my vision of myself. Crux of these thoughts being have courage, keep doing justice to yourself, nurture your inner will power and your transformation.

 I am a gentleman who is kind, nurturing, adventurous, smart, at times extremely bold and blunt, someone that truly defines the word "SWAG". But I, like many others do have a dark-side to me in terms of my insecurities, Now looking at the kind of person that I am, I never have ill intentions towards anyone. Then "WHY" do I let my insecurities stop me from experiencing my best life possible? Is it because I am afraid of my own true potential and getting lost in it? OR is it because I've always been told that I am a very street smart person and the rebel in me is just so adamant in the idea of owning my own freedom that I constantly self sabotage the most beautiful things in my life. "I WANT TO BASK WITHIN THE SAME WAY I EXUDE POSITIVE ENERGY OUTWARDS!!!"    I am a HEALER that helps others get past tough times faced. Someone that heals others of their past traumas. The "WHY" not myself? Is it because I think so little of myself that I believe t...

 Strengths:  Humble Kind  Jolly Passionate Spiritual LOVED Very Social Extremely creative Witty Hard-Shelled Meditation Being Childish Being Genuine Weaknesses: Inaction/Procrastination  Self-Sabotage  Not the best looking Financially Insecure Feeling overly guilty even when not required Require some alone time out of nowhere Overthinking Family bond Soft on the inside (a weakness when I let the wrong people in) Insecurities: **Identifying: Judgement of myself and others about me Non-action mentality Looks Overthinking People pleasing mentality Career instability Family bond NOT FACING MY FEARS **Origins: Body shaming as a child which wasn't properly recognized at the time has somewhere within me left a void that I myself haven't recognized or worked towards. Being a people pleaser in the past has made me shift my focus from myself to others. Lack of financial stability, even though it has made me strong and aware. It has always stopped me from achieving/experie...