The Ups and Downs of privileged life

 When you come from a privileged background, nothing ever seems unachievable. As a child, you get whatever you want. The world seems limitless and expectations from life expand which could and did lead to a lot of disappointment.  

With that privilege comes certain expectations from others on how you should live your life so that you can maintain this privilege. These expectations, for a person as imprint-able as I was back then, stopped me from following through with my personal dreams and aspirations back in school and college. I wanted to pursue humanities and psychology in school, in todays time I am pursuing the same in the from of Tarot. At a point of time I wanted to pursue a career in dancing and a couple of years ago I did teach a few workshops on Flow Movement (the art of finding your own inner movement to music). So in a sense of speaking, this privilege has most definitely slowed down my progress in certain areas of my life.

At the same time it was this very privilege that allowed me to sit on a sofa and waste away 3 years of my life after I failed to graduate from university. So like everything in life, this privilege also has it's pros and cons.  

"Can I redefine this privilege?" "What do I want to redefine it as?" "Why do I want to redefine it now?"

I suppose I want to redefine it now because I've been giving a lot of my life's power away to thoughts of this privilege which I need to regain. As per "CAN I?" Of course I can. "DO I WANT TO?" Yes. "WILL I MAKE IT HAPPEN?" Absolutely! I want to redefine it as a support rather than a way of life that I have to live by. In the sense that, I shall follow through with my vision of myself in life knowing that privilege was given to me to aid me in mastering my life, NOT FOR IT TO MASTER MINE!!