Being afraid of my own sexuality!!

 Why am I afraid to put myself out there? What is this fear? How does it affect me? What is the trade off? How can I better my situation? What effects should I hope for?

I guess I am afraid to put myself out there because of multiple reasons. One of them being my insecurity of how I look, another being the fear of underachieving.  But until I put myself out there I can not understand myself, my sexuality. The tradeoff I make by doing this is limiting my own creativity.

I need to open up, forget the lost opportunities and look up to the present. Here is where life lays, "not the past, nor the future."

I hope after this understanding, I stop blocking my own creativity and my expression of sexuality.